Psycho womb baby at 15 weeks

I am not sure if because this time around I am always eating sweets...but this baby is ACTIVE! When Dex was in my belly, he always was hanging out at the bottom of my uterus....sleeping. He was never being difficult for the ultrasound techs. This baby is ALL OVER the place. It's funny that two different people have done ultrasounds and both say the same thing, "I'm trying to get a read on the heart, but it won't stop flipping around!" (heartbeat was 147 today, eventually)

Today the baby kept crossing it's legs, and we couldn't get a great view of the genital area. Soooo...I gotta be patient and wait four more weeks. BUMMER!
Little baby did wave a lot though!
The pregnancy is going well, and I like to eat a lot...I don't get full very easily. I wake up in the middle of the night pretty thirsty, but now I keep a cup near the bed.
My hips hurt on and off. Picking Dex up makes them burn. Just an ouchy pinching burn feel. I have been trying to let him walk everywhere...but sometimes he just wants, "up!".
Every time I ask Dex if he wants a baby boy or baby girl, he always says, "baby girl". When I asked him what was in my belly yesterday, he said, "yucky"...(whatever.)
I saw Dr. Sheikh today, and he was so nice. (If ever there was a doctor I love..this is him!) He was at the hospital when I had Cora. He was wonderful, and had great bedside manner. I remember he was testing me for the fetal fibronectin(sp?) test...and it wasn't good, and he was really kinda about telling me. Anyway, he was around for Dexters appointments too, and now this ones. He told me today that everything about the baby looked normal, cervical length normal, fluids normal...He decided that we wouldn't do the progesterone shots unless he saw anything weird in the next visit. I am off the hook!! He said since everything was going as should be, there should be no cause for concern. I can't wait to see what my OB thinks. She thought for sure they were gonna be on me like a hawk with those shots. I bet she will be happy at least that they aren't too worried now.
This technician said I had: An Anterior Placenta/It means your baby is taking a backseat to the placenta. The term "anterior placenta" refers to the location of the placenta within your uterus. Most of the time, a fertilized egg will situate itself in the posterior uterus — the part closest to your spine, which is where the placenta eventually develops, too. Sometimes, though, the egg implants on the opposite side of the uterus, closest to your abdomen. When the placenta develops, it grows on the front (or anterior) side of your uterus, with the baby behind it. 
  
Does the location of your placenta make any difference? Not to your baby, who doesn't care which side of the uterus he or she is lying on, and it certainly makes no difference to him or her where the placenta lies. And what about to you —  or your practitioner? You might be less able to feel your baby's early kicks and punches because the placenta will serve as a cushion between your baby and your tummy. For the same reason, your doctor or midwife may find it a bit harder to hear fetal heart sounds (and it could make amniocentesis slightly more challenging). These situations will resolve if the placenta moves into a more posterior position later on (as anterior placentas commonly do). But the good news here is that, despite those slight inconveniencies, an anterior placenta in and of itself poses no risk to your health. 

The tech said that I am super in tuned with my body since I could already feel the kicks with having the anterior location. I will agree with that.

Well that is the news from today!

Womb Baby

We had our 13 week ultrasound today, and the little baby has stuck around! This time it looked like a little human, so that was awesome. To get to this point means a lot. I can feel calm that things are growing/going well. It's finally starting to be more real, and I felt that connection beginning. SOooo that was really great :-)

In two weeks I start going to the Maternal Fetal Clinic. This is where I went while pregnant with Dexter. Here is where I get more in depth ultrasounds and have the specialist take a peek at them. This is still all precautionary stuff. They check the length of your cervix, amniotic fluid levels, the baby...etc...They will tell me to start getting my weekly booty shots of progesterone to help keep the baby from wanting to leave my tummy early. (No one knows why Cora wanted out so bad, but if your normal progesterone levels drop that will tell your baby it is time to exit, sooooo if they shoot me with extra progesterone, it is good, because I will have so much of it, if my levels did drop, it would help keep the baby inside me) Like I said before, they are not sure if that had occurred, but it's better to be safe than sorry, and it doesn't hurt anything, besides my butt.

I was thrilled to see my booty shot nurse at the office today! Ruth was my little gem at the office who would give me my weekly shots when I was pregnant with Dex. I hadn't seen her since I was 36 weeks pregnant with Dex, and didn't know if she still worked there or not, and she surprised me today while I was waiting for the doctor to come into my room! It's quite a bond you get when someone sticks the largest needle they have into your most sensitive area....Needless to say, I was extremely happy because she makes a sucky thing not so sucky anymore. She did tell me she was moving to FL in August, and I said "perfect timing, because I am due in August, and you will be shooting me up for my whole pregnancy!" You make think this is silly, but this was the second highlight to my day. I told her I needed her for this, and it makes things so much calmer for me. Hurray for Ruth!

Soooo, my womb baby could hardly stay still today during the ultrasound, and it could be because I ate a sugar cookie from my mom before the ultrasound....but I knew I had a little tumbler in there! I had been feeling the "quickening" movements the last two days....It happens! I felt Cora and Dex move around 14 weeks, and I never expected to feel anything before then, but I did a few times already. It is very subtle, and would be barely noticeable, but I am freaky in touch with my body, and I know a few tricks. The main one is ice water, and being really quiet and still..and kinda scrunch yourself, or squish the baby pretty much....I sorta curl up, and take a swig, and babies seem to move around...I dunno why, but it works...So I went into the ultrasound feeling okay because I felt a few little movements already!

So that is the scoop!

Toddler Mayhem

Well, my awesome toddler is a crazy person. I turn my head for two seconds, and he is into trouble. Whether it be from finding powder and pouring it all over his room, pouring my red gatorade onto my cream carpet, or grabbing all the clothes out of his closet and making the carpet unable to be seen. Mommy has a short fuse these days, so I think I have to put the gate back up again and corral him. Now that he isn't in a crib, I don't have a spot to keep him safely if I need to get things done. A toddler is an interesting little person. They are too young too know something might be dangerous, but old enough to get into everything dangerous...For instance...my dishwasher. I have to make sure to have it unloaded while he is running about because he can open it, and their are sharp knives that could be easily taken out to play with...We have to remember to push the lock button on our water/ice dispenser or we will have a river in our kitchen, we can't leave anything out because his toys are not as fun as our technology, wallets, purses, keys, cups, food, etc.....(He kinda reminds me of our ferrets from back in the day...they stole everything too) I forget that he can open almost anything now, like bottle tops...hence why the gatorade was dumped...I forgot he could open that! The most important thing to remember, is NEVER EVER leave crayons anywhere he can reach...Or he will color on the house.

Being the laid back parents that we are, we foolishly let our child draw on the walls in Derricks man cave, because I have started a mural down there, that I have not yet finished....but we let him color on those walls...yet, how do you explain that THOSE are the only walls you may draw on? We didn't think that far ahead...oh well.

Little guy still sucks at eating. Talking to other parents makes me feel better at least. Recently a friend told me their kids live off corn dogs and pancakes. I was like, "sweet, dex lives off waffles(aka wabbies) " Actually, here is the list we feed him that he will eat( it's not too bad, but veggies are a no go)He eats: waffles, oatmeal(although lately he is bored with it), yogurt, cheese, all flavors of applesauce, goldfish, nutragrain bars, peanut butter and jelly, melon, grapes, bananas,oranges..(he's a fruit guy),french toast, sliced ham or turkey when in the mood...pizza(always)...dry cereal, grilled cheese,cream cheese and jelly toast,  ham and cheese sandwich when in the mood, chicken patty(when in the mood)...That is pretty much it off the top of my head. The thing is, with the whole "in the mood stuff" i usually end up having to throw food out, or it ends up going to waste in the fridge. One day he will like something, and then the next turn his nose up to it. I barely introduce new foods anymore because of how much food is wasted. It sucks to make something you think he is gonna like, and then tell you "it's yucky".

Dex has a huge sweet tooth. It all started with the potty training. M&Ms, were the start of it. He loves CANDY. The potty training came to a halt when he got bored with it. He is starting back up again only going on it once or twice a day. He will go on command. For instance, if he has a dry diaper, one of us will say, "go on the potty" and he will go. Or before he gets in the tub I make him pee in the potty. I try to tell him it's gross to pee in the tub so he will go on the potty before hand. He usually goes right before bed too. I don't push it, but I wanna keep him a little consistent....He should be outta diapers when this baby comes. Scratch that, He WILL be outta diapers by then.

Big boy bed was a success, that was one easy hurdle at least. The next hurdle is getting through this pregnancy. It's been a fairly boring pregnancy which is completely amazing. I haven't had any of the aches and pains yet, though I know that will come soon enough. Aside from the normal morning sickness, and fatigue....all has been well. I barely feel pregnant. I'm not freaking out as much as I did with Dexter. I think it helps that I have had zero bleeding, and I am  too occupied with Dex.

I'm not getting an at home doppler this time, so I think that means I am handling it ok. With Dex I checked for a heartbeat every other day pretty much. I had the goo and everything to rub on my belly. My next ultrasound is Friday, and that will put me at ease more if everything looks ok. I will be almost 13 weeks by then. My weeks change on Mondays. So I am 11 weeks and 6 days today. Tomorrow is the big 12. Ta ta for now!

December 4th I started my newest post...

December 4th-
So I sit here posting yet once again.My life that is all things consumed by pregnancy,children,miscarriage,preterm labor....

I sit here finding out that we are pregnant once again. I took a test five days ago, and burst into tears of happiness.We started trying in Nov, and low and behold, it worked! I will say we are very lucky to be able to get pregnant so fast, but it is holding on to the little baby that we have to worry about.I have a good feeling about this one,so I hope I am not jinxing myself.I just feel ok about it even though my stomach is in knots daily with worry...can't seem to stop that.I feel super tired,hungry, and so far a little nauseous..not bad yet.I am only five weeks along.This is just exciting and crazy.I wanted to be pregnant before Cora's birthday, and it happened! I shouldn't put pressure on myself like that, but I am a control freak and that is just who I am.

6weeks- So the puking occurred at the same time getting some sorta cold or virus thing. Mucus dripping down your throat only enhances the nausea. I am currently 7 weeks along writing about the past week. I didn't leave  my bed for days, and my moms' had to come watch Dexter since I was glued to the toilet/kleenix box/bed. It was a shitty week. Once my cold thing started letting up my all day sickness started to go away. I wasn't sick just in the morning, it was all day, and the worst at night. Night makes everything worse, I swear. I don't understand how people can eat nutritiously in their first trimester if you have nausea. The only items that sounded ok to eat were cheezits, coco pebbles, cheese, cream cheese toast, juice, and crackers.

7weeks same day-later in the night. Threw up my taco dip.I start getting sick yucky anywhere between 6-8pm. This is new for me. I wasn't sick with Dexter. Ughh, it's rough because I have issues with my stomach and it's difficult to stop throwing up once I start. Ever since I was little I have had this issue. Something with a weak pyloric valve, I believe. In any case, I usually end up in the ER from dehydration since I can't stop puking. So far I have been managing ok enough. It hasn't been continuous. Just once then done. Fingers crossed. With Cora I ended up in the hospital at 8 weeks because I had such bad all day sickness. Makes me think this one is a girl as well. With my last miscarriage I didn't have any sickness, so I thought that one may have been a boy. Ya never know, but it's a thought.

7 weeks 3 days- pretty cool that i have no bleeding...I bled with Dex and the last pregnancy. This one, nada.  Perhaps another good sign. Waiting for ultrasound on Jan 6th to see if all is well. I got food down today, so that is a bonus. Haven't done well with taking my vitamins. They just make me puke...

8 weeks- Gummy bear vitamins to the rescue + b6 + unisom = me feeling much better. Everyone gets you so freaked out that if you don't take your vitamins you are putting your baby at such risk, and the fact I couldn't keep my vitamins down was probably giving me much un-needed anxiety and not helping with my sensitive stomach already. Since the doc said I could take the gummy bear vitamins, which are delicious, might i add...i have been feeling much better. Coincidence, maybe, or maybe I was just getting over the hump of the 1st trimester sickness crap.. With Cora I was only sick for about 2 to 3 weeks as well...So this might be my norm. Or the worry part sets in and says, "uh oh, are my symptoms going away, is all well??" So either or, I gotta wait till my ultrasound to see what is going on. I got my blood and all that taken the other day, so if they don't call me from that, at least that part is fine.

We are still sorta pretending we aren't pregnant until we hear if everything is ok. We don't get to celebrate like most people or talk about the future baby until way later since we know what can occur. Having had early, and late pregnancy loss really blows since it forces the consecutive pregnancies to be so much less exciting in the beginning.

random thought-I told a girlfriend that when I was getting my blood taken, that the lady asked when I was due, and I just sorta sat there for a minute all confused...I really wasn't talking about that baby like it could actually potentially be viable yet, or have a chance to be born, because my brain just can't go there..I eventually told her August 6th like it was programmed to come out of my mouth. It was sorta odd for me though, and eye opening about how my mind was actually protecting itself from another loss. (if that makes sense)
I feel like things are progressing ok. My stomach is starting to pooch, I have all the healthy normal signs going on, so so far it feels ok. I just hate how I know how life will trick you so bad and put a damper on things. Sooo, I sit and wait. I make no plans of a future child, even tho I am supposedly pregnant.

Derrick seems pretty positive about this one, as do the rest of my family and friends, which is great. If I can't be super positive yet, it's good others can.

I have told a decent amount of family and friends, since I was pretty much bed ridden for two weeks. It's not something I can hide very easily. My clients know I never just move their appointments around for two weeks straight. They know me, and they know the drill when I get pregnant...being this my 4th time. FOURTH! One baby so far outta 4 tries. Can you believe that? I still can't. Anyway...no one ever knows what life will throw at them. I use to think I had so much control over my world, and yet, it's scary when you realize you don't.

8 weeks 2 days- Back to work! So far so good, just pooped.Tired and pooped. At least it's the normal stuff! It's nice Derrick will watch Dex at night for a few hours so I can just sit.

I recently had a few friends share with me they are also pregnant. Super exciting, yet also super awful thoughts in my head. (what if one of us miscarries!? how awful for the other person!) It's a common thought. It happens all the time so it is pretty horrifying to me. I don't want anyone else going through it, and  I don't want to go through it either..just hoping everyone is ok! Fingers and toes crossed.  I would say I would pray, but I am not sure about that whole thing. You can pray as much as you want, but it doesn't stop anything from occurring that will just occur..... Things just happen on their own,so I find just dealing with what is currently going on , and just trying to be patient is the best way for me.

TODAY!-JAN 6th! Ultrasound day. There is indeed in fact, a baby in there. Just one. It was moving, and had a heartbeat. PHEW! I guess I think I am pregnant now. I'm just about 10 weeks. Heartbeat was 170ish. Hearbeats are always fast in the beginning, It will get a little slower in a few weeks. Things the Doc said: 1.) Shots of progesterone begin at 14 weeks. Just like with Dexter, for precaution. Those I will get weekly.2.) Gotta also have those weekly appointments at the Maternal Fetal clinic. This is both scary and awesome. For one, I get an ultrasound basically every week, but two, I get to have specialists knit pick at every little baby detail and scare the bajesus outta me. For instance when they saw a bunch of cysts in dexters head at 16 weeks, and put us in a room with a tissue box...That was just a horrific experience..to which the horrible doctor with horrible bedside manner EVENTUALLY stated..most of the time those cysts just disappear....It's just that usually they disappear by 20 weeks, so ya never actually see them and have to worry...GOTTA LOVE IT. 3.) Dexter needs to be in a big boy bed before I get super big, Doctors words. She doesn't want me lifting him out of a crib, and said it would be nearly impossible anyway. No biggie there. So there you have it, in a nutshell!

Still very cautious, but there is nothing I can do about anything. Whatever will be, will be! Hopefully it will just BE!

Almost 2!

Dex is almost 2! Can't wait to celebrate with the fam, and see him actually enjoy/understand opening his gifts! It should be pretty fun. Little Man is doing great, and he is learning more words, even if we are the only ones that understsand what he is saying. What's cool is that since we can understand him more, he isn't freaking out as much. Maybe the terrible twos were over quickly?? Probably not likely, but that would be great.

We just got back from our first mini trip as a fam with Dex, at Great Wolf Lodge. It was so fun! I always thought I would hate being around a ton of kids all weekend, and it would be annoying, but it was the opposite. There is so much there for kids to do, that it makes life easy for the parents, and in return, more relaxing. I couldn't believe all the activities! I highly recommend this place for anyone who hasn't gone before. They even had booze in the pool area, awesome.

Dex really enjoyed playing in the water with the other kids. He is still getting used to sharing, and all that normal stuff. The funny stuff is when he copies kids. This one kid made a loud noise at him, so he copied him, but Dex has a really high voice, so it was the funniest sound. They did this back and forth for awhile, and everyone was laughing around us. It sounded like a hurt cat or something.

Rather than all the water play, Dex enjoyed the arcade the best. Derrick and him are becoming one person lately. It's SCARY. I think Dex already likes gambling. He was putting the coins in, winning tickets, eyes growing huuuge! He knew just where to bring those tickets to pick out his new toys. He chose CARS, of course. He kept telling the cashier lady, "Car, Car!,Mooorcycle!" She let him have one toy even though he didn't have enough tickets. hehe. He is working the eyes early!

We haven't done too much with potty training yet. He has just begun not likeing his diaper wet, and will take it off and give it to me. He will sit on the potty sometimes, but he hasn't gone in it yet. I'm not too worried about it like other parents. It seems like people are always freaking out about that and pacifiers. Seriously, he won't be an adult sucking on a pacifier, and wearing diapers by choice at 20. He will be OKAY. It's weird how many people look at you like you are doing things wrong, and it's not even their child. Does this make sense? I guess I may look at someone funny if their five year old was sucking on their boob though...that would be different, I guess. If you are reading this, lay off the whole paci/potty lectures please. Everything will be O.K. lol.

It's been 9 months since my miscarriage now, and I think we took enough time to calm our brains down. That was a pretty stressful time there for a moment. Sort of a whirlwind. We just may be ready to actually try for another baby now. We will see. My doctor said I would be able to fly for my brothers wedding if we timed it appropriately, and do extra testing to put everyone at ease. It was nice to chat with her and make me feel ok about the situtation. She even said we could time my shots so that I either am under 14 weeks, so I won't even need the shots yet, or if I am over 14 weeks and started the shots, we could sorta plan it around the trip, or teach Derrick to give it to me. I had progesterone shots with Dex weekly, and they want to keep me on the same plan for next time. Just precautionary stuff. Only thing that sucks is that it is the largest needle, and thickest weird oil stuff that injects into my butt/hip...Sometimes it hits a nerve and I can't walk, and it leaves a huge welt. It's pretty gross, but worth it. The walking part obviously blows...since I always get sciatica. Like I said before, all well worth it, but just more stressful than most peoples pregnancies. I have double the appointments as a normal person, and more chances to be freaked out since most people don't get early ultrasounds every week. It's nice, and awful all at the same time. Oh well, here's to the future ;-)

Been awhile!

LIFE IS BUSY, people. I have no clue where to begin. Let's start with the easy stuff, Dexter. He is almost two, which I am in denial about. My coworkers have to keep reminding me not to say he is one and a half. He will be TWO in two months?? What the H-Edoublehockeysticks??

He is in that terrible stage. I can't say terrible twos yet, since he isn't. So I will just say he is, terrible. Not all of the time, just at times, and when he is, he IS. He doesn't throw himself on the floor, but rather will throw things, or hit objects, or myself...whichever he prefers in the heat of the moment. It could come on at any moment in time. For instance, if it's time to go inside after playing, and he did not get the memo that it was time. Or just out of the blue he will cry and babble something we don't understand, and we have to try to guess, which gets him more upset..The joys of parenting a toddler! It's all so new. Someone had to remind me that two year molars happen about now, which could explain his altering mood as well.

Now for his sweet moments. He has begun kissing. He kisses photographs, booboos, stuffed animals, the cats, and he has started kissing our faces ;) He likes receiving kisses on his cheek or forehead. He will lean in close all smiley and give you a look that melts your heart, and then you kiss him, and he comes back for more a few more times. It's pretty adorable.

Everything to him lately is "mine!". He has claimed everything, even my cats. He walks up to Triz and says, "mine!". He takes Chelseas wallet and says "mine!". Ha ha. I wish he would claim my vegetables. No such luck. Still not happening. Oh well, peanut butter and bread is his staple food. I guess people can live off of that.

Dexters current interests still include anything and everything having to do with transportation. Bikes, cars, trains, airplanes, and four-wheelers. The obsession is massive. He points out every jeep, and subaru forrester, since these are what we drive. He thinks Derrick and I have many cars it seems. I will be driving him in my car, and he will see another car like mine out the window and yell, "Mamas car!" Then he looks at me all confused wondering how I can be in two places at once.

He does not want to color, read, or learn anything I want to teach him. He wants to take tv remotes apart, and put the batteries back in after he takes them out. He wants to turn the tv off and on. He knows how to play his own dvds, put them in, and push play all by himself. He gets so proud when he does this. He wants to sit in our car and push every button, making windows go up and down, he puts the key in, he does the sunroof, etc..(we actually let him do this on a nightly basis, it is his favorite past time)

I'm thinking he is not going to be an artist, dang it! He is an OCD nerd. Where or where did THAT come from I wonder??(sarcasm) He is a neat freak. Cleans at all times. Throws everything away. He doesn't let me leave anything out, he points and shouts, "uh oh!" as if it is the end of the world that I left a cup on the coffee table. I swear, it's just craziness. This is MY child??? lol.

It is pretty cool to communicate with him now, though, when he is acting rational. He can tell us what he wants or needs. Or he can at least show us. I can compromise with him, and he understands. It's neat that I can say, "Take one more bite of that turkey meatball, and I will give you some of my juice" and he will totally obey! Or he will bring me his shoes if he wants to go outside, and I say "we can go outside if we eat first" and he will get in his little seat and try to eat fast! He's pretty street smart.

K, I'm tired. Till next time.

Secret Life

Well I will admit it, one of the shows I have been following since it came out is, "The secret life of an american teenager". I fell in love with this show because when I got pregnant with Cora, the girl on the show was the same amount of weeks as me. It was neat to watch and be going through the same stuff. I just fell in love with the cast of characters, and got sucked in. Anyway, when I lost Cora I had to stop watching the show because it was too difficult. It's like we were on the same path, and then I went off in another life. When I got pregnant with Dex, I felt okay watching again, so I caught back up, and have been watching ever since. Basically, tonights episode was one of the other characters who had gotten pregnant nine months ago, but her baby ended up passing away. It was an extremely emotional episode that struck close to home. It was everyone assuming she had the baby and all was well, but then seeing the expression on the parents faces and knowing all had gone horribly wrong. It was like they took my story or something, and I was watching it as an outsider. I am glad they had that episode strangely enough. It sorta validates my feelings somehow. Anyway, I thought I would share.